HIM

Sometimes I just don’t know what to do, everything comes hurling at me and I just take it cause that’s all I have learned to do. I love him but Im in love with HIM. This isn’t right, no but what do I do. I love being with him but I cant stop thinking about HIM. What do I do? What do I do? Im just so confused. He makes me so happy but HE is the one I want to be with. I don’t know. I don’t know. They are totally different but in away the same. They both have my heart but I can only have one. What to do? What to do? I had HIM and he left me so now I have him. But just because HE left me doesn’t mean I don’t want HIM. So I sit and I think and I just keep thinking… Will there ever be an answer? I don’t know. So for now I wait and hurt and continue to hurt until one day maybe I learn to be in love with him or leave him to be with HIM.