alone

Alone... Am I all alone?
I'm connected in so many ways but
In so many ways alone.
I love and cry and hate
And no matter what I'm alone
I walk and I run and I dance and I jump
But still I'm alone
Why me? Where is everyone?
Should I accept it?
Or should I keep looking?

HIM

Sometimes I just don’t know what to do, everything comes hurling at me and I just take it cause that’s all I have learned to do. I love him but Im in love with HIM. This isn’t right, no but what do I do. I love being with him but I cant stop thinking about HIM. What do I do? What do I do? Im just so confused. He makes me so happy but HE is the one I want to be with. I don’t know. I don’t know. They are totally different but in away the same. They both have my heart but I can only have one. What to do? What to do? I had HIM and he left me so now I have him. But just because HE left me doesn’t mean I don’t want HIM. So I sit and I think and I just keep thinking… Will there ever be an answer? I don’t know. So for now I wait and hurt and continue to hurt until one day maybe I learn to be in love with him or leave him to be with HIM.

The inner me

When I look deep down, all I can see is the pain

I try to hide it but it just ain’t the same.

I’m hurt and I’m bitter and I just can’t see past the sorrow.

Who do you think I am? I’m not yours to just borrow.

This is it I’m done, I’m moving on

That’s it you’ve lost me because im already gone.

I’m breaking away from the old me

And I’m becoming the person ive always wanted to be.

Do I regret what we did? No, but I need to be forgiven

For what I have done with you isn’t the way I should be livin.

To God I turn for he is my Savior

If I lean on him my Faith will never waiver.

So here I am standing tall and proud,

Not a hurt in my heart and no longer apart of the crowd